Like the food critic in Ratatouille, I am looking for a little perspective. I need help balancing the many roles in my life: mother, wife, teacher, director, sister, friend.
I want to play peek-a-boo and make faces and sit in the rocking chair together. I want to use crayons and read board books and do puzzles. I want to play swords and make up super powers. I want to have tea parties and write in a diary. I want to go on dates and stay up late having deep conversations.
I have to do laundry and I have to do dishes. I have to pick up the house and I have to mop the floors. I have to pay bills and call creditors. I have to call insurance companies and balance checkbooks. I have to give math lessons and read history books. I have to compare prices and enter data.
I continually put more weight on the have-to side than the want-to side. And I regret it. As a friend told me recently, I can start today having the family Jesus always intended. But it’s elusive and deadlines loom.
Do you have any perspective for me?