Anyone who knows me, who really knows me, knows I have doubts. I choose to be strong in my belief through my doubts. That may seem inconsistent, but other doubters know what I’m talking about. Sometimes faith is faith, and sometimes it’s an act of will.
Well, a big doubt popped up a few weeks ago. It related to the Druids in Briton. (How’s that for random?) Seriously though, the kids and I were learning about the Druids and I just had this nagging, “Did all these people just go to hell?” thought. And then I thought, “How could that be God’s plan? He was at work in one tiny little country in the middle east during this time period, and these people were thousands of miles away unaware of God and now they’re all going to hell?”
I sort of ruminated on this for a few days and then finally called my pastor and asked him. He was quick to point out several things: I don’t know that those people are in hell, God is just and God is good, perhaps God knew those people would reject Him so He put them in that place and that time for a certain purpose, and who am I to question God anyway?
Well, I understood my pastor’s point but there was still a nagging “Why?” So, cue powerful worship music from the previous post, God spoke to me. I was wondering why God wouldn’t choose another way; why not just tell the Druids about Himself. Why hide Himself from them? I really felt God answer me that, “HW, I did reveal myself to mankind. And mankind rebelled and rejected. And the course of events of history had to happen so that I could make a way for mankind to come back to Me. My Son came when it was the right time for mankind to realize their own depravity and be reconciled to Me.”
Of course, I’m sure He said it better than I remember, but His voice soothed and alleviated my doubts. Being in His presence is so much better than anything else, and it truly calms fears and alleviates doubts. Just wish I could live there… (‘Course, I guess I really will live there one day!) Until that day, here’s praying He speaks to you soon!